look at my life

How long have I got In the bright light till the glow fades? I've been thinking through the rough days Over cheap highs like every night No, you don't need to come over 'Cause I'd fake smiles and I'm tired Slowly turned into a stranger Barely know myself anymore Do I seem high-functioning or Is my disguise falling apart? Oh God, don't really answer me, Caroline But oh well, look at my life Bet you can't tell but it's been a hard ride A new downward turn each night Crying my eyes out, still saying I'm alright Yeah, I might just stay quiet and drive Hope I don't lose it and burn out the headlights My worst fear realized Got what I wanted, it don't feel right I just walked in to the party With the big names and the pretty faces Empty words and words and words until my ears ring He's holding a pill Says maybe I should take one But I'll raise him to the whole pack I'm joking, God, he thinks I'm reckless What a low blow, but then we go Downtown, there's no remedy I'd throw away if it promised me Quieting voices, don't wanna hear a sound But oh well, look at my life Bet you can't tell but it's been a hard ride A new downward turn each night Crying my eyes out, still saying I'm alright Yeah, I might just stay quiet and drive Hope I don't lose it and burn out the headlights My worst fear realized Got what I, what I Maybe if I smile enough I'll get away with letting go I'll move across the country just to doubt myself the same way though As I do while sitting here I miss my friends, I disappeared And haven't seen them for a year Oh God, what am I doing here? But oh well, look at my life Bet you can't tell but it's been a hard ride