4 Any1 Else

Another lover sees me, But I see you. Another guy with eyes like clear blue swimming Pools. His brown hair like the earth that never Grounds me. And still, I've never found me. Rose-tinted recollections of the razor fish cuts on The balls of feet that can't escape your clutch. Dirt under nails That scratched on your back symbolize the self-care That I always lacked. Soft lips and tobacco-stained teeth Lit the gas leaked, and you blamed, blamed, blamed It on me. Misplaced fondness, I mourn memories. I subconsciously effin' the guys to fill the hole You leave. I yearn for someone To give my heart to, So it's no longer mine to bear alone. But it's too heavy. It's just too heavy for anyone else but me. Parachute emotions, Red sky warnings. Mothers waiting by the phone in case the doctors Call. Emerald mist hits skin when I told you I was all in. Scarlet drips in the kitchen, Evidence another type of falling. One where Rollercoaster moments take you over the edge to face Your atonement. His soft palms can't cover your prints That you left on me, your breath's on me And it stings. I yearn for someone To give my heart to, So it's no longer mine to bear alone. But it's too heavy. It's just too heavy for anyone else but me. In the coldest alcoves, the cobwebs hold the densest Words, and they never grow old. Lingering whispers imbalance my progress. When I'm one with the vineyard, I will fall To the locusts. Front tooth parting, Brunette stubble. Bubblegum eyes that burst my bubble. They scream, "Dime trouble," I cry. In the desolate woods with trees so tall. Ain't it funny how quick seeds planted grow when The soul's at war? I yearn for someone To give my heart to, So it's no longer mine to bear alone. But it's too heavy. It's just too heavy for anyone else but me.