Not in Vain

I'm getting used to all this loneliness To the monotonous violin of rain There is nothing more that I could wish I'm perishing alone, without you, in this pain The faint sun warmed me, then it seared my eyes My soul now painted in the shades of red My love for you turned out to be unwise And I was just in vain to you instead The snow is falling now right on my heart It lies there frozen, doesn't melt away Perhaps in this whole world, I've died apart But no, I'm breathing... how, I cannot say The faint sun warmed me, then it seared my eyes My soul now painted in the shades of red My love for you turned out to be unwise And I was just in vain to you instead I'll put a smile upon my lips so pale That once were living, that were once so red I'll close my eyes against this windy gale I'll hide the pain, I'm not in vain, I've said The rain will bring its joy, the sun its heat The snow will melt, for I am still alive My soul is aching, can't accept defeat I'm not in vain, I'm not that kind, I'll thrive