Cost of Loyalty E

If I didn't count my seconds, I promise I Would live reckless. Lost count of all my blessings, I should've learned to be selfless. I'm not holy enough to rock this Mary piece On my necklace. Top me, what they see on The surface for the aesthetics. They don't trust a single soul in attendance. Secrets I hold for 'em only though they're not Smith & Wesson. And I stay quiet for too Long when I should've addressed it. When I'm gone, I know they'll still hear me Like I resurrected. Comeback to go for a legend, And there's always more to the story. They leave out the part they'd ignore me. Learn not to let 'em do shit for me. Love comes with a price, ain't shit for free. Lessons learned from the bridges I've been burnin'. And that love don't mean their loyalty is for Certain. A villain standin' on the other end of The curtain. What's worsen? Seein' it for what it is in person. If I didn't count my seconds, I promise I Would live reckless. Lost count of all my blessings, I should've learned To be selfless. I miss you when I wish That I could call you, but I can't, uh. Fuck you all night one more time, but I Can't, mm. Damn, I miss your kisses, I miss All you, but I can't, damn. You can't give me your all, and it's all Good, but I can't, uh. Break my heart for No one, I love you, but so what? Feel like cryin' all alone in my room, I Still show up. I got sessions, interviews, I'm wanted all around the globe. I know I'm the perfect catch, so I won't Take it personal. Put you in my verses though 'cause this heartache be burnin' slow. All up in my fuckin' head, it's spinnin', this Is vertigo. All this just my ego talkin', We can't be together, fuck it. Let me change the subject, I got abandonment issues, So I'm buggin' I don't got no hate for you, but baby, I can't wait for you. I won't go insane For I got trust issues too, I ain't open Up to people. You just caught me slippin', now I'm trippin', now I remember why be stayin' to Myself. It's all good, I wish you well. Time gon' be my medicine, but I guess only Time will tell. I think you're amazing, you're Inspiring, I believe in you. But you could never be with me 'cause you Don't wanna be with you. If I didn't count my seconds, I promise I Would live reckless. Lost count of all my blessings, I should've learned To be selfless.