Invisible

I eat lunch in the bathroom stall again today Not because I want to, but it's safer that way Heard them laughing in the hall, know it's probably at me Just another Tuesday in this high school tragedy They took my phone yesterday, threw it in the trash Teacher saw, walked past, said "stop making such a splash" Like I'm the problem, like I asked for this Like I enjoy being the punchline, the target, the misfit Walk through the hallway with my head down low Eyes on the floor, gotta be invisible, you know If they don't see me, maybe they'll leave me alone But they always see me, they always know I'm invisible, invisible Standing in plain sight but they look right through I'm invisible, invisible Just a ghost in this school, nothing I can do I'm invisible, invisible But their words still hit, still leave a mark I'm invisible, invisible Fading away alone in the dark Came home with a bruise on my arm last week Mom asked what happened, I said I'm clumsy, I'm weak Can't tell her the truth, can't make her worry more She's got enough problems, she's already poor So I smile, say I'm fine, go up to my room Stare at the ceiling, pray for silence soon The voices in my head join the ones from school Tell me I'm nothing, tell me I'm a fool Started writing in a notebook, filling up the pages All the pain, all the rage, all the hidden stages Of a girl who learned to disappear before she learned to live Of a girl who had nothing left to give I'm invisible, invisible Standing in plain sight but they look right through I'm invisible, invisible Just a ghost in this school, nothing I can do I'm invisible, invisible But their words still hit, still leave a mark I'm invisible, invisible Fading away alone in the dark One day I won't come back, one day I'll be free One day they'll wonder what happened to me Maybe then they'll feel sorry, maybe then they'll care When I'm not there, when I'm not there But I'm still here, still breathing, still getting through Still waking up every day, still putting on my shoes Still hoping tomorrow might be different, might be kind Still searching for a light in a world that's blind To the girl in the bathroom, the one who eats alone The one who walks home quickly, the one with no phone The one who writes poems about getting out alive The one who's still fighting just to survive If you see someone like me, say something kind You never know what's going on in their mind You never know if today is the day they break You never know how much difference a word can make I'm invisible But I'm still here I'm invisible But I'm still here