What am i living for?

Don't kill me back then... the blast wave Don't break my thread... the stray machine-gun burst I would sleep in that forgotten forest planting Where the strikes burned everything alive around And now I'm alive For what? I feel a storm in my dreams And a blizzard that covers houses I dream dreams where I burn to the ground Break out to freedom — I won't let myself be killed It wasn't for that I survived in hell Let me dream... that I'm falling That I'm lying in the ground There, outside the window — it's already quiet But in my head, shells are still exploding I remember the war I remember all the names I feel a storm in my dreams And a blizzard that covers houses I dream dreams where I burn to the ground Break out to freedom — I won't let myself be killed Let the blizzard cover the old wounds Let the ash fly from the burning houses I'm alive to remember So that children don't know what war smells like I survived And this is not just words