Burn it all down E

I carried your voice through the trenches Like a cross, like flame, like a vow I survived where conscience goes deaf Where people have no hope And you're in warmth, in your apartment Where a kettle, a blanket, and soft light You just so easily put a period In the world that was warmed by me And what's left in me now? Scorched air, dust, and rage Love in me didn't break off — It went in like a knife right through Warm yourself, bitch, by someone else's fire Since mine wasn't enough for you I see you in this flame — How everything that was burned to ash Warm yourself, bitch, don't call me back I'm already where mistakes aren't forgiven, and they shoot back You told me: "I've grown cold" — and in that same moment You killed the last light in me Your voice cracked in the radio with a wheeze Even though you were hundreds of miles away And everything I considered a prayer Suddenly became ash among the stars I remember hands, I remember shoulders How you whispered: "I'll wait, my love — I'll wait," But time, bitch, doesn't heal us When betrayal is in the chest Every day here is like a step over an abyss Every breath here is like a miracle And I held on, to be honest Only because you're at home You didn't kill me — you broke me In me, the one who waited to meet you Warm yourself, bitch, by someone else's fire Since mine wasn't enough for you I see you in this flame — How everything that was burned to ash Warm yourself, bitch, don't call me back I'm already where mistakes aren't forgiven, and they shoot back You told me: "I've grown cold" — and in that same moment You killed the last light in me Today will be my last battle Not because I didn't know how to survive But because the home that called me home Became alien and unnecessary with one message And if someone asks about me in the morning — Tell them the truth, just without beautiful dust It wasn't a bullet that first wounded me in this war It was your words that finished me off Warm yourself, bitch, since your love is gone Since you could forget while I survived under a black sky You just "grew cold" toward me at home And I burned — in that forgotten landing Fourth year Last step No tears. No words Only red darkness You sleep peacefully under a peaceful sky And I'm going where fate will decide everything