My kokoro is broken

I sit by the screen while the room holds its breath Anime on pause, and the moon feels stuck in its depth Senpai-skuf left me without even a sign And my kokoro cracked in the silence that night I waited in the chat, replayed the ending again Thought he’d finally answer, thought the pain would end But he vanished like a spoiler in a dead thread And I stayed all alone, with the tears I never said On the desk, half-cold tea, on the screen, a flickering frame Where the heroine laughs, while I’m barely the same I whisper to myself, “Hold on,” but my voice shakes through 'Cause without him, even my favorite anime feels blue I scroll through the openings, each one feels like a clue Like the world keeps saying, “Don’t give up, keep moving through.” And I hide my eyes behind my bangs like a shield Still hurt, but I won’t let my heart stay sealed Yeah, senpai-skuf disappeared like old Wi-Fi in the rain Leaving me with the cold and the empty, aching pain But I won’t drown in this gray, boring despair I’ll piece my heart back together, step by step, somewhere And if it stings again, I’ll fix my hair by the mirror Say, “Whatever, I’m too kind to cry forever.” In my playlist, openings; in my chest, stubborn light I know there’s still a happy answer waiting in sight Let him sit there alone, scrolling through his dull chat While I’m already dreaming of the better format A young, strong kun with a smile hot like summer days And with him, all my laughter will come back and stay I’ll give my heart to the one who stays for real Who won’t leave it cold with a wound that won’t heal And though I’m here alone, there’s a dawn in my chest I believe my kun will come, and the hurt will rest Oh-oh, my kokoro is broken Tears on my cheeks, but I’ll rise, unspoken I can’t glue myself back together tonight Senpai-skuf walked away — fine, I’ll survive I’ll find myself a kun — young, strong, just right And my heart will beat again in a happy light Oh-oh, my kokoro is shattered But I’m still standing, even if it matters Senpai-skuf can keep his empty gloom I’ve got a brighter future blooming in the room A young, strong kun will be my sweetest song With him, my heart will finally beat strong I press play on another title, and the night goes still Where the hero won’t surrender, even against the chill And I won’t break either, though a storm lives inside Tonight my heart is winter, but I know spring will arrive I won’t be the one to text him first, won’t chase “hey” anymore Won’t keep giving my feelings to a door with no door Senpai-skuf, you were just a tired, fading mirage And I need someone real who can warm my hand and my heart I want someone nearby who laughs with strength in his eyes Who notices my silence and says, “You matter, don’t hide.” Who lifts me back to life like the brightest final scene Until even my old fears fade out and leave me clean Let my friends whisper, “Girl, just let that thread go,” I’ll answer them softly, “Yeah, I already know.” Because somewhere in the crowd, under the city lights Is my kun — young, built, alive — and he’ll shine through the night And when he finally appears, I won’t hide my kokoro I’ll hand it over bravely, without fear, without sorrow Let him keep it gently like a warm, precious secret So in our little world, the old dawn can never defeat it Oh-oh, my kokoro is broken Tears on my cheeks, but I’ll rise, unspoken I can’t glue myself back together tonight Senpai-skuf walked away — fine, I’ll survive I’ll find myself a kun — young, strong, just right And my heart will beat again in a happy light Oh-oh, my kokoro is shattered But I’m still standing, even if it matters Senpai-skuf can keep his empty gloom I’ve got a brighter future blooming in the room A young, strong kun will be my sweetest song With him, my heart will finally beat strong Yes, it hurt, yes, I almost drowned in the silence But even broken, I still walk toward my own springtime Through anime lights, through the stubborn night rain I’ll find the one who says, “Don’t be afraid, I’m here — you can stay.” Oh-oh, my kokoro is broken But from the pieces, I’ll rebuild it golden Senpai-skuf, goodbye — I don’t need your dark I can already see the sign ahead, a brand-new spark A young, strong kun is my new sunrise And to him I’ll give my heart, no tears, no lies Oh-oh, let the sadness fade away With my kun, I can breathe again today