Family Dinner E

I've been anxious about this for weeks. For weeks. Couldn't stop thinking about what it was gonna be Like. Gonna be like, gonna be like. It's not that I haven't tried to avoid it, To run and hide. See, I just can't change the date of fucking Christmas that I hate. I'm sure I'll be a mess, that I'll be Feeling all this stress 'cause you know they can't Behave, but this time I'll be brave. Be Oh come, I miss them when they're far Away. Hey, I even call them every day. But when I see them, I feel like I Can't stay. I wish I could run away. A family dinner is more than I can Bear. It's a pain in the ass, I swear. It's killing me slowly. I stand numb with my despair and pretend that I don't care. A family dinner Is more than I can bear. It's a pain in the ass, I swear. It's killing me slowly. I stand numb with my despair and pretend that I don't care. It's all about kept secrecies. Secrecies, yeah. Awkward silences and jealousies. Jealousies. When you least expect it, you will diss them And regret it. Their words cut me like a knife. How dare they judge my life? It's too late, we're enabled to sit here at The same table without fighting, without shouting, Can't enjoy a family outing. We share-share the same blood. The same blood. Still everything is odd. Should cut the umbilical cord. We share-We some memories. Some memories. They seem long gone away. It was a different day. A family dinner is more than I can Bear. It's a pain in the ass, I swear. It's killing me slowly. I stand numb with my despair and pretend that I don't care. A family dinner is more than I can Bear. It's a pain in the ass, I swear. It's killing me slowly. I stand numb with my despair and pretend that I don't care. A family-dinner-Dinner is more than I can Bear. Is more than I can Bear. swear. I swear. It's killing me-It's killing Me slowly. Slowly. stand numb despair and pretend that I don't Care. It's more than I can bear. It's more than I can bear. It's more that I Can bear. Yeah. It's more than I can bear. It's more than I can bear. It's more. It's more than I can bear. It's more than I can bear. It's more. Family.