Survival Mode

Feel the walls are closing in, it's keeping me Awake. I can feel the pressure building up inside My veins. I just can't explain it. Something 'bout my nature. Wanna pull me closer, but I'm pushing you away. You think that you're the medicine that maybe I Should take, but I don't need no savior. Alone I feel safer. Did not mean to disappear, but if you love Me, leave me here. There's a side I'm hiding that you don't Know. I'm just trying to save my soul. I shut you out To keep control. But inside I'm dying, Survival mode. Time is like a healer for me when I'm Feeling low. It's not like it's forever, I'll be back before you know. Alone with my emotions, take a moment, I'll be okay by the morning. I'm so sorry that I shut the windows, Locked the door. I'm sorry that our friendship feels So unpredictable. I'm sorry you need more and So sorry I can't force it. There's a side of me I'm hiding that you Don't know. I'm just trying to save my soul. I shut you out To keep control. But inside I'm dying, Survival mode. Survival mode. Survival mode. Survival mode.