How fucked up E

I fucked up, this shit got me feelin’ right Now. Everything I’m touchin’ turn to dust, I’m drownin’ slow. I fucked up, I’m tired of pretendin’ I’m good. Whole world on my back, and it’s pain understood. I fucked up, I fucked up. I’m sick of this bullshit, I’m sick of the struggle. I fucked up, I fucked up. Just wanna disappear, fade into the bubble. Wake up in the mornin’, same old empty bed. Demons in my head talkin’, wish I stayed dead. Pills on the nightstand like ash on the floor. Heart cold like December, can’t feel shit no more. Fake smiles for the ‘Gram, but inside I’m broke. Everybody say they ridin’, but they ghost like Smoke. Bills stackin’ higher than the weed I been Blowin’. Trust nobody now, learned that shit the Hard way, no cap. Used to chase the bag, now the bag feel Like chains. Every win turn to loss, Every sunshine bring rain. I fucked up, this shit got me feelin’ right Now. Everything I’m touchin’ turn to dust, I’m drownin’ slow. I fucked up, I’m tired of pretendin’ I’m good. Whole world on my back, and it’s pain understood. I fucked up, I fucked up. I’m sick of this bullshit, I’m sick of the struggle. I fucked up, I fucked up. Just wanna disappear, Fade into the bubble. Pour another cup, lean got me movin’ slow-mo. Voices in the dark sayin’, “Bro, just let go.” Remember when I dreamed big, now dreams feel like Jokes. Everybody switch up quick when the money get Low. Mama cryin’ on the phone, say she worried ‘bout her son. But I can’t even save myself, How the fuck I’m supposed to run? Scars on my arms tell stories I can’t speak. Numb to the pain now, this shit runnin’ too Deep. I’m lost in the sauce, drownin’ my thoughts. How fucked up life get when you fight still, Mom. I fucked up. How fucked up this shit is. I’m just so goddamn tired, Man. How fucked up. Fade out.