In Debt

I used to fall into daydreams Now I only slip on manipulation You know it’s easier to leave when you hate them So i ruin every chance I get Like Every fevers A Small vacation Until you’re sick Of all the self sedation I tend to push away my feelings they’re a crippling subject I’m in debt to all the love I borrowed And it’s left me hollow Yea All the years they gave I could never ever pay that back I’m in debt to all the love I Borrowed it Left my heart a broken mess Was it time well spent cause I could never ever give that back I've got a masters degree in self sabotage Demons from my past are like me entourage Too broken and broke to pay this debt its easier to push them away instead SO now i take them to bed but I cant get close Im stuck in my head Im taking off their clothes Borrow their love Just like a loan But I still end up feeling like I’m in debt to all the love I borrowed And it’s left me hollow Yea All the years they gave I could never ever pay that back I’m in debt to all the love I Borrowed it Left my heart a broken mess Was it time well spent cause I could never ever give that back Now im trippin thinking about the way I left you Without a call without a text the worst that I could do I ran away from the [pain theres nothing left here to say I didnt mean it I know now that I’m in debt to all the love I borrowed And it’s left me hollow Yea All the years they gave I could never ever pay that back I’m in debt to all the love I Borrowed it Left my heart a broken mess Was it time well spent cause I could never ever give that back