kill myself E

The days are long, but I’m stuck in the night, Chasing a high, but it never feels right. Money can't buy what I’ve lost inside, No matter the wealth, I can’t seem to hide. The world outside shines, but I’m in the dark, Trying to numb all the pain, but it leaves its mark. Silver and gold, they just weigh me down, While I'm lost in this haze, unable to drown. I used to believe there was more to the fight, But now I just fade in the blink of the night. The highs were illusions, the lows are too real, And no amount of cash can help me to heal. I scream for relief, but no one can hear, Stuck in this cycle, drowning in fear. The drugs don't save me, they only destroy, I trade my soul for a fleeting joy. I wish for the light, for the end of the game, To feel something true, to take back my name. But the chains are too heavy, the road too steep, ever find calm in my sleep. I like to kill myself don't care about health I like to kill myself don't care about health I like to kill myself don't care about health I like to kill myself don't care about health