Beautiful, Messed Up Head E

I hear this lullaby inside my head It plays a thousand times when I crawl in bed I’m scared I’m not alright and it drives me mad, mad, mad These voices in my mind are my only friends I just had a daughter A boy became a father My wife became a mother The road has met the rubber Another night at 3am Staring at the ceiling fan How’m I gonna keep my fans? Can I make a hit again to feed my fam? I’m freaking out I’m tweaking, man I’m bleeding out like Jesus’s hands I’m 30 now, so be man My demons love to tease me (and) I’m trying to fight ‘em But it doesn’t work I’ve been fucked up since my birth I hear this lullaby inside my head It plays a thousand times when I crawl in bed I’m scared I’m not alright and it drives me mad, mad, mad These voices in my mind are my only friends But, I’m afraid of them Every time I feel a bit of hope I start to hit a slope Devil throws me in the ropes I think I’m down for the count Going round after round Keep on doubting myself If ion stand up and fight I’m ain’t getting that belt So I swing back and I bloody up my fists Where those teeth at? I can’t relax Yeah, I’m my biggest foe I can see that So I think fast I did it my own way Now, I’m in my own way So own it and go face those demons And in the end It’s just me against my thoughts I’ve spent my whole life Trying to turn them off Now, I think I know Just how to make amends Don’t be scared to love the voice in your beautiful, messed up, head