why am i like this E

Do people like you ever feel this way? I treat my friends like therapists. Most days I feel like shit. And I call them just to bitch. They should get paid for this. My parents getting old, but I rarely visit home. I should get off my phone, but I'm scared Of being alone. I get prioritized too much. My girl and I broke up, and I wasted All her love, but I can't thank her enough. I made this character I hate to be someone I ain't. And I'd rather be someone else, But there's no one else to blame. I'm sorry I'm a piece of shit. I know I'm selfish and I have to live With it. Sometimes I wish I Don't exist. Please tell me why, why, why am I like This? So tell me why, why, why am I like This? Why the fuck am I like this? Why the fuck am I? Why the fuck am I like this? And if I was gone, would you even Miss me? I'm sorry I'm a piece of Shit. I know I'm selfish and I have to live With it. Sometimes I wish I Don't exist. Please tell me why, why, why am I like This? So tell me why, why, why am I like This?