Words Fail From The “Dear Evan Hansen” Original Motion Picture Soundtrack

I never meant to make such a mess. I never thought that it would go this far. So I just stand here sorry, searching for something To say, Something to say. Words fail, Words fail. There's nothing I can say. I guess I thought I could be part of This. I never had this kind of thing before. I never had that perfect girl who somehow could See the good part of me. I never had a dad who stuck it out. No corny jokes or baseball gloves. No mom who just was there 'cause mom was All that she had to be. That's not a worthy explanation, I know there's none. Nothing can make sense of all these things I've Done. Words fail, words fail. There's nothing I can say. Except sometimes you see everything you wanted, And sometimes you see everything you wish you had, And it's right there, right there, Right there in front of you. And you want to believe it's true, So you make it true. And you think Maybe Everybody wants it, Needs it a little bit, Too. This was just a sad invention. It wasn't real, I know. But we were happy. I guess I couldn't let that go. I guess I couldn't give that up. I guess I wanted to believe, 'cause if I just believe, then I don't have To see What's really there. Though I'd rather pretend I'm something better than These broken parts, pretend I'm something other than This mess that I am, 'cause then I don't Have to look at it, and no one gets To look at it. No, No one can really see. 'Cause I've learned to slam on the brake before I even turn the key, before I Make the mistake, before I lead with the Worst of me. I never let them see the last Of me. 'Cause what if everyone saw? What if everyone knew? Would they like what they saw? Or would they hate it, too? Will I just keep on running away from What's true? All I ever do is run. So how do I step in, Step into the sun? Step into the sun.