Whole Life

Late night. Eyes red. Late night. Eyes red. Same phone, same thread. Yeah, Take a lap through my thoughts, stay off Fenced in. Got a list of old friends I Don't text with. Every win feel small, every loss feel big. Mama ask me, "You good?" I just change the subject quick. Same shoes by the door, they don't see much. Whole life in my notes I don't speak of. Scrolling past all the lives that look perfect. Tell myself keep going, it's worth it, Maybe. I've been trapping in my head on the Night shift. Heart cold, but the pressure make the ice drip. Everybody say you up, they don't like this. 'Cause they only see the flex, not the crisis. I've been trapping in my mind, that's a tight Fit. Tryna turn another breakdown to a side gig. If I make it out alive, that's a light Flip. I've been trapping in my head, That's the right risk. Yeah, Yeah. Got a bill in the mail I don't Open. Got a dream in the back that's still Choking. Put a smile on my face like a Logo. Talk tough, but my faith move in slow-mo. Couple secrets in the safe I can't cash out. Couple habits in my way I can't phase out. If I told you all the weight that I Drag through, would you ride with me or run When the mass moves? I've been trapping in my head on the night Shift. Heart cold, but the pressure make the ice Drip. Everybody say you up, they don't like this. 'Cause they only see the flex, not the crisis. I've been trapping in my mind, that's a tight Fit. Tryna turn another breakdown to a side gig. If I make it out alive, that's a light Flip. I've been trapping in my head, That's the right risk.