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Big slugger. Potatoes, you pay back. I6. Banks. Look. Smoking on the devil's lettuce. I like strangling my bitches, it's a sexual fetish. House like a pharmacy, call me your local chemist. Tell 'em, time to separate the sheep and shepherds. I can't do forgiving, I don't do forgetting. Trying to make impressions, I don't do impressions. She can't be my wife, but she can hold A session. If I ain't counting paper, Then I'm counting blessings. I told them rest in peace just like the Ripper. Feel like I lost my daughter's rating since I dated strippers. And no matter what I buy Her, it don't make no difference. But how can I complain when I done raised Her different? Containing all these fucked up Thoughts. When I let women in my life, it Got me fucked up more. I tried to show These brothers love, but they got lost in thought. 'Cause when I needed something back, there weren't No love no more, you know? Hustling for food. I ain't never claimed that I'm A gangster or a goon. No license, just insurance and a re-up in my Boot. Told my driver if he see the federale, Better move. I used to roll to show and proves. Back when me and Z was sharing shoes. Hit my first lick and gave my cousin half The food. I hated being broke, I never had No damn excuse, that's the truth. They don't like my vibe, they say I'm way Too deep. Have you ever seen a snake that Had hands and feet? You can bet your life That I'm a different breed. Before I learned how to cook, I was feeding Fiends. I feel like I need some sleep. Seen a man return broken when they sold him Dreams. Creeping on these streets and trying to keep Discreet. But if I don't keep creeping, How we supposed to eat? I came off the Benches, overcame the trenches. If they don't let me in, then I create An entrance. Different dimensions, Please pay attention. If this is my story, I decide the ending. I just smoked a frog and went to see The gods. Couldn't tell you what they told me, It would leave you shocked. Pay the cost to Be the boss, we thinking out the box. I'm in a room full of work if you Need a job. The older I get, the lesser My friends. Sometimes I had to do it twice To learn that lesson again, you know? Money and fame, let it get to my brain. No point in financial freedom when you mentally Caged. Shorty tried to play me, only played herself. Lying on my name, we call that mental health. I just hope delusion help you pay your bills. And you don't lose composure and become yourself. It's forever, fuck you, pay me. Benny still sleeping like a baby. Left eye lazy. Charged up to the game, they can't play me. Missed me with that shit when it's fugazi. Love me or hate me. Either way pays me. Everything gravy. Pack came bam like Jamie. Saving for them days even when they weren't rainy. Sure thing, ain't no if, buts, or maybes. Brothers that shop and brothers that shoot. They like executive chefs the way they come with The food. Bada-bing, bada-boom, they put you under Your shoes. If I ain't effing with the pack, I'm prolly up in the booth. Look, I got something to lose, nothing to prove. I find it hard to break away, man, I'm Still stuck in my roots. It's who? Man on the move, you moving loose. If you ain't tryna watch your back, then they Might come for your juice, you know? I turned a good woman to a head case. Introduced my mom to bad ones 'cause I got Dead taste. I seen a girl sniff coke and Start to shed weight. How the hell we supposed To settle down? You always in space. I guess that's my karma for leaving Tia. Maybe that's my karma for hurting Chelsea. I should've listened when you tried to tell me. But I put lust over love and it became Unhealthy. My daughter in her terrible teens. I wish she soaked up my knowledge, but she Hates when I preach. I guess she get it from her dad, man, She behaving like me. But I didn't always fall And get to land on my feet, it's deep. That's why I'm screaming I don't wanna see the Cycle repeat. I can't say it how I want it, so I'm keeping it neat. But my point is don't you ever follow mommy Or me. Only thing I ever wanna see you Follow's your dreams. For the flip sake, we was doing wrist tapes. Peddle bike diaries, we was wearing out our disc Brakes. Everything I want, it has to fixate. Either dictating or you let somebody dictate. Don't try and understand me, man, I'm still trying. Assassinate my character, they still trying. I ain't rich yet, but I'm still trying. So many failed attempts, but I'm still trying