Wake Up as Me

I'm afraid to close my eyes tonight. Too many different selves in me. One is running toward the light. One just wants to hide and be. All my fears and all desires. Fight for power and fight for soul. And the one who fears the fire. Takes the body, takes control. If my will falls fast asleep, fear and hunger Pull me down. I don't fear that I will die. I fear waking as a clown. God, let me wake up as me. Not who fear has made of me. Not the one who learned to run. Not the shadow of someone. God, let me wake up as me. If the morning waits for me. If tonight's my ache and my fight. Let it be a brand-new flight. Life's a game without a rule. Face and name are on the line. Every step's a razor move. Every dream a fragile sign. I don't know if dawn will come. Or the dark will close the page. Maybe these last minutes now. Are the final line I age. If my will falls fast asleep, fear and hunger Pull me down. I don't fear that I will die. I fear waking as a clown. God, let me wake up as me. Not who fear has made of me. Not the one who learned to run. Not the shadow of Someone. God, let me wake up as me. If the morning waits for me. If tonight's my ache and my fight. Let it be a brand-new flight. I whisper in the dark tonight. Through the shaking And the fear. Let not be fear that wins. Let the real me rise, I plead. God, let me wake up as me. Not who fear has made of me. Not the one who learned to run. Not the shadow of someone. God, let me wake up as me. If the morning waits for me. If tonight's my ache and my fight. Let it be a brand-new flight. I lie down in dead or light. On my will, on one more try. If tomorrow holds a Lamp. Let that lamp be me.