Control

Early in the morning, I still get a little Bit nervous. Fighting my anxiety constantly try control it. Even when I know it's been forever, I can still feel the spin. Hurts when I remember, and I never wanna feel It again. Don't know if you get it 'cause I can't Express how thankful I am. That you are always with me when it hurts, I know that you understand. I don't wanna lose Control. Nothing I can do Anymore. Trying every day when I hold my breath. Spinning all this space pressing on my chest. I don't wanna lose Control. Sometimes I still think it's coming, But I know it's not. Trying to breathe in in the now, But the air gets caught. 'Cause even though I'm older now, And I don't hardly shake off the past. I wouldn't have made it if I didn't have You holding my hand. I don't wanna lose Control. Nothing I can do Anymore. Trying every day when I hold my breath. Spinning all this space pressing on my chest. I don't wanna lose Control. I need you to know I won't ever be This strong without you. You see how I've grown, you built up my Self-esteem. I don't wanna lose Control.