I Let You Go

I came to this ground today with a flower In my hand. Forty years in my throat And a tremble in my stand. This marker knows your name, Though I never let it breathe. I've been carrying that day Like a stone inside of me. Lord, I hid it in my smile. I buried it in work. I said the hurt was over, But it only learned to lurk. Now the wind is in these trees, And it sounds like you to me. So I kneel here in the dirt, And I finally let it be. I let you go. I let you go. In the house of my pain, I call your name. I let you go. I let you go. Take this old heart home. Make me whole again. Mm. I remember that first spring When the walls went quiet fast. The crib stayed folded empty, while the years went Marching past. Your mother cried in private. I learned silence like a vow. We kept breathing, kept on living, But I'm speaking it now. Lord, I hid it in my smile. I buried it in work. I said the hurt was over, But it only learned to lurk. Now the wind is in these trees, And it sounds like you to me. So I kneel here in the dirt, and I Finally let it be. I let you go. I let you go. In the house of my pain, I call your name. I let you go. I Let you go. Take this old heart home. Make me whole again. Oh. If mercy can meet me here at this cold And holy stone, Then every buried sorrow does not have to die Alone. I feel the chain come loose now. I feel the deep unseal. What I could not speak in forty years is Breaking, But to heal. I let you go. I let you go. In the house of my pain, I-I Call your name I let you go I let You go I Let you go. Take this old heart home. Make me whole again. I let you go I let you go, And I still love you so. In the arms of grace, I let you go.