She Didn't See Me Fall

Mmm. Mmm. The house went quiet when she left us. Nothing sounded quite the same. Her picture's still there on the hallway, But it don't say my name. I tried to keep it all together. Tried to be the man you knew. But grief don't ask for permission. It just breaks right through. You saw me change, But you didn't stay. She didn't see me fall. Didn't see the nights I cried. Didn't see me losing pieces. I was trying hard to hide. I was drowning in the silence, In a life I couldn't hold. But she walked past my breaking Like I was growing cold. I found the bottle in the evenings Just to quiet down my head. Every memory of your mother, Mmm, turned to echoes instead. You stopped calling like you used to. Stopped asking if I'm okay. I don't blame you for the distance. I just wish you would've stayed. I was still your father, Even at my worst. She didn't see me fall. Didn't hear me call her name. Didn't see me fight the darkness Or the weight of all the pain. I was breaking in the open, But no one turned around. I was losing everything I was Just trying not to drown. One night I hit the bottom. No one left to call. I whispered in the darkness, "Jesus, Take it all." She didn't see me rise. Didn't see me find the light. Didn't see the hands that held me When I couldn't win the fight. I found peace inside the silence. Found a love that didn't leave. But I wish she could've seen me, The man I'm trying to be. If you ever think about me, If you ever wonder why, I was lost, But I was found When no one was by my side. Mmm. Mmm.