Better Than I Am

Saw you at the corner where we used to Meet. Your smile still carries that familiar heat. You ask me how I'm doing, what I've been Through. I lied and said I'm perfect, nothing new. Built a story on the spot about the life I never got. You don't need to know I'm falling. I'm pretending that I'm fine now. Saying things that sound divine now. Laughing like I've got it figured Out, Somehow. But the truth is breaking down. I'm just faking every sound. Telling you I'm better than I am, Right now. You talked about your future, all the plans you Made. I nodded like I'm winning in this game we Play. Invented some success I never really earned. Hiding all the bridges that I've burned. Painted colors that don't exist, On a canvas I dismiss. You You don't don't need need to to see See me me crawling. Crawling. I'm I'm pretending pre-that I'm fine now. Saying things that sound divine now. Laughing like I've got it figured out. Somehow. But the truth is breaking down. I'm just faking every sound. Telling you I'm better than I am. Right now. Maybe you believe me. Maybe you saw through. Either way, the distance Grew between us two. I'm pretending that I'm fine now. Saying things that sound divine now. Laughing like I've got it figured out. Somehow. But the truth is breaking down. I'm just faking every sound. Telling you I'm better than I am. Right now. You walked away believing what I needed you to See. And I stood there barely breathing with who I'll never be