Smile E

I feel like life ain't even worth it sometimes. Why I keep holding on? Never took a deal with the devil. Why he keep going strong? He know I ain't running, so fuck him. He know what's going on. Temper uncontrollable, praying my daughter make it Home. Lately, I've been talking to God. Why he ain't picking up? Everybody ended up dead. It got me blicking up. My peace been getting Robbed like they occupation is sticking up. Head been at a permanent low, no way to Pick it up. If death around the corner, my Nigga done probably went too far. Probably somewhere searching for hope, instead got Hit with scars. Everybody yelling be strong. How they gon' speak for Trey? Thinking about little Lyric in Heaven. Why she got took away? I swear I wanna cry, but I can't feel No tears. Know all this pain, it made me Try, so I can't feel no fears. I tried to speak, but got ignored like they Ain't have no ears. Shit, everything I'm dealing With been building up for years. Smile. Damn. I'm trying to, though. Smile. Just gotta keep it real with myself. Smile. It ain't really much to smile about. I just gotta take it for what it is. Damn. Tell me how it's supposed to get better. I used to pray for brighter days and got The opposite weather. It ain't no telling what the Ones you love'll do you for jella. Know if they feel like it's enough, they probably Do you together. Cold world. I'm trying to teach my son to Be strong. I swear I'm going crazy praying Clippers Callin' my phone. I guess I gotta play it Cool. I know this world not my home. So I don't trust nothing but love. I handle business alone. Bro in a cell praying he ain't indicted, Knowing his family need him. Out of state facing time in a prison from Trying to feed 'em. I feel like he was Moving too fast. They trying to see them. Know with life, it's death or a cell. We barely beat 'em. Even if I feel like It's over, I'm going all out. Homie trying to run in that bank so he Can ball out. Loyal to my people to death, Though we might fall out. Searching for a bliss and a smile. I feel I'm all out. Smile. Smile for what? It's like I can't even find a reason these Days. Smile. Losing people left and right. Can't trust nothing the same. Smile. Just gotta be real with myself. Know it is what it is, man. Sometimes it's just the way life go. Life in pain. You know, that might work for you. I feel like I ain't got no reason to Smile, Though. It's my life in pain.