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I swear i'm just sitting back thinkin' About everything in life No matter how good I done by people It never failed, man you know I'm human I always come back around Totally the opposite but I'm good though Lotta things been in my head Days I barely leave my bed I keep pushin' like you said Even though it's hard So much pain, I cannot rest All this time it got me stressed I don't win, I do my best Even though it's hard Lately, I been dealing with pain I'd rather fight Like why the fuck I'm stuck in The night searching for light Damn, my niggas off in the sky Without a flight All the things they left me to fear It wasn't right Hella niggas still in the cell Send 'em a kite Me, I'd rather hit 'em with flicks I hate to write turn my back on many of Mine? I ain't the type That's why the couple of 'em who left I hold 'em tight I feel I need a different direction No distillation But we fuck 'em, that's restoration Some people that I love tryna Stop me from elevation Right or wrong, I still keep it solid No hesitation me, I'm in the same Location where nothin' promised Where they say you ain't Designed to see thirty, just bein' honest Just hope they got to see when it happened Lotta things been in my head Days I barely leave my bed I keep pushin' like you said Even though it's hard So much pain, I cannot rest All this time it got me stressed I don't win, I do my best Even though it's hard They told me keep my faith while I'm losing And it'll pass praying Hard to see one day you'll Be first when always last I swear it's like your life Only relevant when it's cash Be careful who you give dedication Just know you at somebody disposable Like you was trash No with me controlling these motions I only spaz too many niggas singin' the Blues right over jazz Speakin' different, most of live it A different tune Not knowing things, we made it, our mama We would be doomed My children ask me "Will it get Better?" I tell 'em "Soon" I'm equal to the greats but I'm guessing it wouldn't Even if I never get noticed, I couldn't trip I know, keep on planning, I couldn't slip Anyone who listen, I gotta dip Regardless, tell 'em "Look at me now" I got 'em Clip Lotta things been in my head (My head) Days I barely leave my bed (My bed) I keep pushin' like you said Even though it's hard (It's hard) So much pain, I cannot rest (I can't rest) All this time it got me stressed (Stressed) I don't win, I do my best (My best) Even though it's hard Even my bed It's so hard i can't rest It's stress my best