The Abyss Within

Feeling the abyss inside your soul You become someone you don't know Entangled in fate's twisted thread No peace of mind, no rest in bed And barely left within your core That faded sunlight of your soul Try hard to keep its fading light Chase off this darkness, take your flight This abyss in me is neither foe nor god It's where false conclusions hit the sod Where all the masks and roles burn bright And only naked gaze remains in sight This abyss in me is darkness' philosophy A rare disease's strange biology I run from it and drown in silent sea How long have you been sitting here in me To silence this abyss within my chest I drowned its noise with city's restless zest Dissolved in crowds, tried to forget it all With conversations, music, alcohol But hide as I might, it stays inside Reflected in each window, mirrored wide And once I realized at cold dawn's break Running from your own dark is a mistake This abyss in me is neither foe nor god It's where false conclusions hit the sod Where all the masks and roles burn bright And only naked gaze remains in sight This abyss in me is darkness' philosophy A rare disease's strange biology I run from it and drown in silent sea How long have you been sitting here in me In deepest depths where I thought all would end I heard my living voice begin to mend The abyss is not a foe, but scar forgot Unlived truth covered by a darkened blot I accepted it and suddenly dark shook And in my heart, my soul for first time took And now instead of abyss - deep peace I own Because at last I've truly, fully grown This abyss in me is neither foe nor god It's where important conclusions hit the sod Where all the masks and roles burn bright And happy gaze remains within my sight This abyss in me is darkness' philosophy A rare disease's strange biology I ran from it and drowned in silent sea How long have you been sitting here in me