Fourfaced E

Looking hella fake, cleaning out my garden, Mow the grass. I been-Wheels. I been smoking with my pain, been smoking my- He looks curious. Oh. Back to the top, been while and I'm tired. Think I had enough, I might just retire. Can't trust your words 'cause I know you're a Liar. Tossing my body to prolong the fire. Tryna clean up your act, you tryna clean up Your trail. Tryna wake up from this dream 'cause It doesn't feel real. You don't even need a weapon, use your words To kill. Why don't you just tell the truth? Why won't you let it spill? Why lie for what? I just don't understand. Tired of giving fucks. All according to your plan. Used my trust and then said sorry. Lies you said sent chills through my body. Play with my trust like a game, like Atari. Tryna get better, but I'm fucking hardly. A friend or foe, I don't even know. You weren't there for me at my lows. Talk to the spirits and ghosts. Are you my real friend or no? But I already knew you'd switch up from the Start. My anxiety is shooting up, it's shooting off The charts. Can't forget your fucking face because Your lips are dripping marks. I been smoking on this gas and feeling woozy, Seeing stars. Don't give a fuck what you say. I don't wish you fucking death, I just hope You decay. These thoughts, they go through my brain. Because of your actions, I won't be the same. I'm trying, I'm trying, I been tryna change. But it's hard to get rid of this, escape This pain. I cover my ears, don't wanna hear What you saying. I try to erase you, But you left a stain. Oh, God, snap, I'm feeling the worst. Your image is fading, it's starting to blur. I hope that it gets better, doesn't get worse. I can't trust a soul 'cause I might end Up hurt. I'm trying to find myself, I'm on a search. I'm close to the summit, I'm close to the Perch. How you then say you need me, but then Leave my side? Felt like shit is incoming, Should've picked up the signs. Can't face the truth, I'd rather face the lies. Hold all my tears with all my might. Pour my soul into my songs all night. You say you my friend, but you're not and It's like... No, This can't how it goes. To be at this low. Know you're not alone.