Bad at Letting Good Things Stay

You're holding my hand like it's something to keep, But I'm already thinking how far is the leap? I know how to smile like everything's fine, While I'm already grieving what we won't have in Time. Every time someone gets close, I pull away slow, like I already know how The ending will go. You look at me like I'm something rare, But I'm just waiting for it to disappear. My mind keeps running ahead of us, Turning something good into something to mistrust. I've spent so long trying to shut it down, That voice that keeps saying it won't work out. I'm bad at letting good things stay. I push them out before they fade away. I see the light in the way you look At me, but something in me won't let it Be. I get too close, then I pull back Again, like I'm scared of where this could begin. I don't know why I'm this way. I'm just bad at letting good things stay. You see the best in me, I see everything Wrong. Like I've been carrying this weight for too Long. Every time it feels calm, I look for the break, like peace is just Something I'm bound to shake. You reach for me like I'm safe to hold, But there's parts of me I've never told. I hesitate even when I wanna stay, Like something in me needs to run away. I don't wanna lose what this could be. But I don't trust it staying with Me. I'm bad at letting good things stay. I push them out before they fade away. I see the light in the way you look At me, but something in me won't let it Be. I get too close, then I pull back Again, like I'm scared of where this could begin. I don't know why I'm this way. I'm just bad at letting good things stay. If I pull away, don't let me go. It's not that I don't feel it, I just Don't know how to believe something good is real Without waiting for it to disappear. So stay if you can, If you've got the time. I'm done pretending that I'm doing fine. I know I make it hard this way. I'm just bad at letting things stay.