Afraid to Be Saved

I don't know how to do this. Hmm. Hmm. I've been the person Who fixes things alone. Who sleeps on problems just to wake up and Move on. Who learned that asking for help was just another Debt I'd have to carry. You came in quiet, No conditions attached, And something in me doesn't know how to respond To that. I keep looking for the catch because nobody Ever just shows up like this. I'm afraid to be saved by someone like you. Afraid that I'll need it and then lose you Too. I've survived so long by not needing a Hand. I don't know who I am when someone helps Me stand. You make it look easy, this love without cost. But I've been so long in the dark, I forgot what it feels like When someone just stays. I'm afraid to be saved by someone like you. You said you weren't keeping score, like that was Obvious, like everyone does that. I sat with it for days, trying to understand What you meant by it. Nobody's ever loved me without a reason, Without eventually running out of patience. You're still here in all the in-between, The boring days, the bad ones, The ones I can't explain. I'm afraid to be saved by someone like you. Afraid that I'll need it and then lose you Too. I've survived so long by not needing a Hand. I don't know who I am when someone helps Me stand. You make it look easy, this love without cost. But I've been so long in the dark, I forgot what it feels like When someone just stays. I'm afraid to be saved by someone like you. Hmm, still afraid, But I'm not leaving. That's the closest thing to brave I know How to be. Hmm. Hmm.