Are You Safe or Are You Just New

I've got my boots by the front door. And my keys right by my hand. I'm so used to checking for the exits. It's a habit you don't understand. You look at me with no conditions. You pour your coffee, you take your time. And for a moment, the room goes quiet and I forget I'm supposed to run. But the ghosts in my head start talking. They ask me if I'm losing my mind. Is this the start of something beautiful? Or just the same old hurt disguised? Are you safe, Or are you just new? Are you a shelter, or a storm passing Through? I don't wanna learn another hard lesson. I don't wanna fix what I didn't break. Tell me you're real before I fall deeper. Before I give you the parts I protect. Are you safe, Or are you just new? Or am I about to lose myself Again? You laughed when I flinched at your touch. You didn't run, you just slowed down. I'm not used to someone staying when the heavy Clouds come around. I wanna put my armor in the closet. I wanna trust the way you smile. But I've mistaken fire for a fireplace once before For a little while. And I hate that I'm still asking if good Things ever really last. When all you've done is hold me gently and Ask nothing from my past. Are you safe, or are you just new? Are you a shelter or a storm passing through? I don't wanna learn another hard lesson. I don't wanna fix what I didn't break. Tell me you're real before I fall deeper. Before I give you the parts I protect. Are you safe, Or are you just new? Or am I about to lose myself Again? My Hands are shaking Under the table. But I'm not reaching for my Keys tonight. Maybe that's Already something. Just tell me, Are you safe Or are you just new?