I Still Check If You're Doing Okay

I don't call, I don't text, I let you Be. I told myself I'd give you the space You need. But your best friend still follows me Somehow, so I catch a little piece of your Life right now. I'm not stalking, I'm just paying attention. Telling myself there's a difference worth Mentioning. I got so good at walking away, But I never learned how to stop caring anyway. I know I lost the right to ask. I know that part of your life isn't mine To have. But I still check if you're doing okay. Still notice when you disappear for a couple days. I'm not in your life, I gave that up. I don't know how to stop caring on command. I don't need you to text me back. I just need to know you're okay, Nothing more. So if it matters, if you wanna know, I still check if you're doing okay. Saw you looking tired in a photo last week. Almost sent a message, then I deleted it. It's none of my business, that's what I told Myself. But I sat with my phone for an Hour anyway. I know this isn't love, not the way it Used to be, it's just a part of me That still worries about you. Some feelings don't end when a person leaves, They just get quieter and stay where they are. I know I gave up my place in your World, But I never gave up hoping that you're okay. Oh, but I still check if you're doing okay. Still notice when you disappear for a couple days. I'm not in your life, I gave that up. I don't know how to stop caring on command. I don't need you to text me back. I just need to know you're okay, Nothing more. So if it matters, if you wanna know, I still check if you're doing okay. Maybe one day I'll stop looking. Maybe one day this fades away. But until then, I still check If you're doing okay.