Still at War With Himself

I see the way you look at me, Like I'm someone worth believing in. And I wanna be that person. God, I wanna be that person. But there's something under me, That I haven't made peace with yet. And it comes out in the silence, And the way I shut down when it gets Real. I know what you're giving me. I know how rare this is, and that's exactly Why I keep wondering if you Deserve better. You deserve more than someone, Still at war with himself. More than a man who loves you, But can't love himself. I wanna be a safe place, but I'm not Safe yet. You deserve more than someone, Still at war With himself. You stayed through the worst of it. The nights I couldn't explain. The mornings I woke up angry at nothing, At everything, At me. You never made me feel like a Burden, and somehow that made it harder because I Felt like one. Even if you never saw me that way. I don't wanna be the reason you stop believing Love is worth it. I've seen what staying does, to someone who gives More than they should. You deserve more than someone, Still at war with himself. More than a man who loves you, But can't love himself. I wanna be a safe place, but I'm not Safe yet. You deserve more than someone, Still at war With themselves. Oh. Oh. This isn't me giving up on us. This is me being honest, for the first time In a long time. I love you enough to admit it. Some days I'm still lost in this. Still learning how to carry myself without putting It on you. Maybe one day I'll be ready, But today I'm still fighting a war you didn't Start, And you shouldn't have to finish.