I Don't Wanna Need You This Much

I check my phone just to see if you Called. I rearrange my day around you without thinking at All. I used to be someone who never needed much. Now somehow I wait for the feeling of your Touch. I built my life around not leaning on A soul. Now here I am, and somehow you Became my calm. This isn't who I thought I'd be. I don't know when you got this deep in Me. I don't wanna miss you this Much. I don't wanna feel lost without your Touch. I was fine alone, I knew how to breathe. Now you're in places underneath me. I don't know when it got this hard. When your absence started leaving marks. I don't wanna need you this much. But I do. God, I do. You don't even know what you've become to me. The first thought I reach for when the room Goes quiet to sleep. I spent years keeping everyone at arm's length. Now giving you my trust takes all my strength. I hate how much your voice can calm my Mind. Like somewhere along the way you rewired my Nights. I don't know how you got this far In. I don't know when I stopped keeping you Out. I don't wanna miss you this Much. I don't wanna feel lost without Your touch. I was fine alone, I knew how to breathe. Now you're in places underneath me. I don't know when it got this hard. When your absence started leaving marks. I don't wanna need you this much. But I do. God, I do. It's not that I am complaining. I'm just not used to this. Letting someone matter The way you do.