I’m Afraid I’ll Ruin What We Have

I don't raise my voice when I'm scared. I just smile and pretend I'm fine. Every good thing I've ever held Slipped away with time. I've learned how to walk on thin ice. Call it love, call it control. Every time I let someone close, I lose a piece of my soul. You see the best in who I am. I see the cracks I try to hide. I'm not afraid of loving you. I'm afraid of what I might break inside. I'm afraid I'll ruin what We have. Say the wrong thing, move too fast. I don't know how to love without fear. I don't know how to make it Last. If I pull away, it's not because I don't Care. It's because I care too much. Yeah, I want you close, but I'm scared to Breathe. I'm afraid I'll ruin what we Have. I've been the storm and calm a day. The silence after goodbye. I don't trust my own heart anymore. It's failed me every time. You reach for me like I'm not broken, Like I'm safe to hold, but you don't know The damage I've been carrying all along. Mm. I don't wanna bleed on your life. Don't wanna turn love into pain. So I hesitate, I overthink, praying you'll Still remain. I'm afraid I'll ruin what We have. Say the wrong thing, move too fast. I don't know how to love without fear. I don't know how to make it Last. If I pull away, it's not because I don't Care. It's because I care too much. Yeah, I want you close, but I'm scared to Breathe. I'm afraid I'll ruin what we Have. If loving you means losing control, Then teach me how to stay. If trusting you means letting go, Don't let me run away. I don't need forever promised. I just need you here. Show me love can still be gentle, Even when it's real. I'm afraid I'll ruin what We have. But I'm more afraid to let this die. So I'll stay, even if I shake. Even if I'm terrified. If I break, don't turn away. Hold me when I doubt myself. I don't want perfect, I just want truth. Even if I ruin what we have with you. I'm still learning how to stay. Still learning how to breathe. If you're willing to be patient, I'll give you what's left of me.