I live by proxy

I don't know where to begin, there's so many Things I wanna do, but I'm so scared to Fail 'cause in this world you're not allowed to. So I act like there is nothing to do, Laying on the floor of my bedroom is the Only place I can stare at my phone. I live by proxy to not feel alone. I say I write sad songs, but I'm not. I guess I lie, I think I am. I just don't know the reasons why. But how can I be with a perfect family? I should be grateful with all these people who Love me. So I want my life to start, don't wanna Wait anymore. I want my heart to love, I want my Body to explore. I want my life to start in the world In which I was born. I think I'm ready to be a part of It, to be a part of it. Even in my songs I live By proxy because I tell other stories, Because I don't have any experience of my own. I just make a vague memory more beautiful of What it was. I make it rhyme in a Few lines, and I sing a pretty melody. So I want my life to start, don't wanna Wait anymore. I want my heart to love, I want my Body to explore. I want my life to start in the world In which I was born. I think I'm ready to be a part of It, to be a part I'm tired of dreaming Of what my life should look like. Screaming, shouting out loud that I'm alive. Believing I could not die young. I wanna do so many things that I can Rest. Meet so many people that I will know Everyone, and everyone will know me. So I want my life to start, don't wanna Wait anymore. I want my heart to love, I want my Body to explore. I want my life to start in the world In which I was born. I think I'm ready to be a part of It, to be a part of it. Be a part of it. To be a part of it. To be a part of it.