You Only Loved Me When I Was Leaving

You only loved me when I was leaving. Only held me when I let go. Why did losing me remind you of the love You wouldn't show? Your arms grew lighter around my shoulders. Your good nights faded into air. I learned the shape of lying beside you and Somehow feeling no one there. You used to find me in a crowded room, Like I was all your eyes could see. Then somewhere love became a habit, And habit stopped reaching for me. I thought that staying proved I loved you. I thought you'd always understand. I never saw how far you drifted while I Was sure I had your hand. I asked for little things in whispers. I heard them when they turned to goodbye. Funny how the heart wakes up the moment love Is learning how to die. You only loved me when I was leaving. Only held me when I let go. Why did losing me remind you of the love You wouldn't show? You found the words I'd waited years for. When there was nowhere left to stay. Why did I have to become a memory? Before you loved me That way. Before you loved me that way. I loved you too late. Your suitcase waited by the door, half-lit beneath The hallway glow. And suddenly every quiet promise Came rushing back before you closed. I made the coffee how you liked it. I touched your face the way I should. I gave you all the tenderness I'd always meant To, never could. You called me beautiful like the first time you Said my name and made it ache. And every word I prayed to hear once came When my heart was just past the place where Words could turn the tide between us or teach The broken years to bend. I wanted you to love me sooner, Not beautifully at the end. I thought tomorrow would forgive. I spent too many tomorrows alone. Some doors don't close from anger, they close when Waiting turns to stone. You only loved me when I was leaving. Only held me when I let go. Why did losing me remind you of the love You wouldn't show? You found the words I'd waited years for. When there was nowhere left to stay. Why did I have to become a memory? Before you loved me that way. If I had known the quiet meant you were Drowning. If I had known you'd finally learn to See. I would've loved you louder in the ordinary. I would've stayed if love had reached me. I was saving everything for someday. I was disappearing day by day. We weren't ruined by one goodbye. We were ruined by the love-We kept postponing On the way. You only loved me when I was leaving. I only showed it when you, when you let Go. Sometimes losing what we treasure. Shows us what we should have shown. I'd give anything to love you sooner. But love can't always make us stay. You shouldn't have to become a memory. To be loved the proper way. You shouldn't have to walk away. For someone to beg you To stay. You only loved me When I was leaving. I loved you. Just too Late.